Accident Nocturne, Modiano.24 octobre 06 @ 19:50
J'avais besoin de respirer à l'air libre. D'ordinaire, je vivais dans une sorte d'asphyxie contrôlée - ou plutôt je m'étais habituée à respirer à petits coups, comme s'il fallait économiser l'oxygène. Surtout, ne pas se laisser aller à la panique qui vous prend quand vous avez peur d'étouffer. Non, continuer de respirer à tout petits coups réguliers et attendre que l'on vous enlève cette camisole de force qui vous comprime les poumons, ou bien qu'elle tombe peu à peu d'elle-même en poussière.
Mais cette nuit-là, dans le jardin, je respirais à fond pour la première fois depuis longtemps, depuis Fossombronne-la-Forêt, cette époque de ma vie que j'avais oubliée.
Nous étions arrivés devant l'Aquarium. On devinait à peine le bâtiment dans la pénombre. Je lui ai demandé si elle l'avait déjà visité. Jamais.
"Alors, je vous y emmènerai un de ces jours..."
C'était réconfortant de faire des projets. Elle m'avait pris le bras et j'imaginais, près de nous, tous ces poissons multicolores tournant derrière les vitres dans l'obscurité et le silence. Ma jambe était douloureuse et je boîtais légérement. Mais elle aussi, elle portait son éraflure sur le front. Je me suis demandé vers quel avenir nous allions.
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Oasis - She's Electric.08 octobre 06 @ 15:37
She's electric
She's in a family full of eccentrics
She's done things I've never expected
And I need more time
She's got a sister
And God only knows how I've missed her
On the palm of her hand is a blister
And I need more time
And I want you to know
I've got my mind made up now
But I need more time
And I want you to say
Do you know what I'm saying ?
But I need more..
'Cause I'll be you and you'll be me
There's lots and lots for us to see
There's lots and lots for us to do
She's electric, can I be electric too ?
She's got a brother
We don't get on with one another
But I quite fancy her mother
And I think that she likes me
She's got a cousin
In fact she's got about a dozen
She's got one in the oven
But it's nothing to do with me
And I want you to know
I've got my mind made up now
But I need more time
And I want you to say
Do you know what I'm saying ?
But I need more..
'Cause I'll be you and you'll be me
There's lots and lots for us to see
There's lots and lots for us to do
She's electric, can I be electric too ?
Can I be electric too ?
Can I be electric too ?
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Letters to Cleo - Pretend to be nice.04 octobre 06 @ 01:45
Well he looks at me with those innocent eyes
And says it looks like you're wearing some kind of disguise
Because your hair sticks up and your shoes are untied
And I hope you got that shirt at half price
And every word I say falls flat on the floor
I try to tell a joke but he's heard it before
And I don't think that I can take it no more
'Cause he's driving me right out of my front door
Why do you do what you do to me baby
You're shaking my confidence, you're driving me crazy
You know if I could I'd do anything for you
Please don't ignore me cause you know I adore you
Can't you just pretend to be nice
Can you at least pretend to be nice
If you could just pretend to be nice
Everything in my life would be alright
And I try so hard just to figure him out
But he won't tell me what he's been thinking about
And then he falls asleep on the living room couch
With his sunglasses on and his tongue hanging out
And then he disappears for a week at a time
And then he shows up, just like everything's fine
And I don't get what goes on in his mind
But I'm tired of hearing the same stupid line
Why do you do what you do to me baby
You're shaking my confidence, driving me crazy
You know if I could I'd do anything for you
Please don't ignore me, 'cause you know I adore you
But can't you just pretend to be nice
Can you at least pretend to be nice
If you could just pretend to be nice
Everything in my life would be alright
Why do you do what you do to me baby
Shaking my confidence, driving me crazy
You know if I could I'd do anything for you
Don't mean to bore you, 'cause you know I adore you
Can't you just pretend to be nice
Can you at least pretend to be nice
If you could just pretend to be nice
Everything in my life would be alright
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Elliott Smith - Alameda.02 octobre 06 @ 21:56
You walk down Alameda shuffling your deck of trick cards over everyone
Like some precious only son
Face down, bow to the champion
You walk down Alameda looking at the cracks in the sidewalk
Thinking about your friends
How you maintain all them in a constant state of suspense
For your own protection, over their affection
Nobody broke your heart
You broke your own cause you can't finish what you start
Walk down Alameda brushing off the nightmare you wish
Could plague me when I'm awake
And now you see your first mistake was thinking that you could relate
For one or two minutes she liked you
But the fix is in
You're all pretension
I never pay attention
Nobody broke your heart
You broke your own cause you can't finish what you start
Nobody broke your heart
You broke your own cause you can't finish what you start
Nobody broke your heart
You broke your own cause you can't finish what you start
Nobody broke your heart
If you're alone it must be you that wants to be apart
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Alanis Morissette - So Unsexy.02 octobre 06 @ 20:47
Oh these little rejections, how they had up quickly
One small sideways look, and I feel so ungood
Somewhere along the way, I think I gave you the power to make
Me feel the way I thought only my father could
Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me
One forgotten birthday, I'm all but cooked
How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily
I'm thirteen again, am I thirteen for good ?
I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind
Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me
One forgotten phone call, and I'm deflated
Oh these little defenses, how they fail to comfort me
Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated
I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind
When will I stop leaving baby ?
When will I stop deserting baby ?
When will I start staying with myself ?
Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me
I jump my ship as I take it personally
Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly
The moment I decide not to abandon me
I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind
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Eels - P.S : You rock my world.1er octobre 06 @ 20:46
I was at a funeral the day I realized
I wanted to spend my life with you
Sitting down on the steps at the old post office
The flag was flying at half mast
And I was thinking about how
Everyone is dying
And maybe it's time to live
I don't know where we're going
I don't know what we'll do
Walked into the thriftee
Saw the man with the hollow eyes
Who didn't give me all my change
But it didn't bother me this time
'Cause I know I've only got
This moment
And it's good
I went to the gas station
Old woman honked her horn
Waiting for me to fix her car
I don't know where we're going
I don't know what we'll do
Laying in bed tonight I was thinking
And listening to all the dogs
And the sirens and the shots
And how a careful man tries
To dodge the bullets
While a happy man takes a walk
And maybe it is time to live
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